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Each of our actions, our words, our attitudes is cut off from the ‘world,’ from the people who have not directly perceived it, by a medium the permeability of which is of infinite variation and remains unknown to ourselves; having learned by experience that some important utterance which we eagerly hoped would be disseminated … has found itself, often simply on account of our anxiety, immediately hidden under a bushel, how immeasurably less do we suppose that some tiny word, which we ourselves have forgotten, or else a word never uttered by us but formed on its course by the imperfect refraction of a different word, can be transported without ever halting for any obstacle to infinite distances … and succeed in diverting at
our expense the banquet of the gods.

What we actually recall of our conduct remains unknown to our nearest neighbor; what we have forgotten that we ever said, or indeed what we never did say, flies to provoke hilarity even in another planet, and the image that other people form of our actions and behaviour is no more like that which we form of them ourselves, than is like an original drawing a spoiled copy in which, at one point, for a black line, we find
an empty gap, and for a blank space an
unaccountable contour.

It may be, all the same, that what has not been transcribed is some non-existent feature, which we behold, merely in our purely-blind self-esteem, and that what seems to us added is
indeed a part of ourselves, but so essential a part as to have escaped our notice.

So that this strange print which seems to us to have so little resemblance to ourselves bears sometimes the same stamp of truth,scarcely flattering, indeed, but profound and useful,
as a photograph taken by X-rays.

Not that there is any reason why we should recognise ourselves in it.

A man who is in the habit of smiling in the glass at his handsome face and stalwart figure, if you show him their X-Ray radiograph, will have come face to face with that rosary of bones, labelled as being the image of himself, the same suspicion of error as the visitor to an art gallery who, on coming to the portrait of a girl, reads in his catalogue: “Dromedary resting.”

Later on, this discrepancy between our portraits,
according as it was our own hand that drew them or another, I was to register in the case of others than myself, living placidly in the midst of a collection of photographs which they themselves had taken while round about them grinned frightful faces, invisible to them as a rule, but plunging them in stupor if an accident were to reveal them with the warning: “This is the real you.

Just some random thoughts that came to my mind….©Profarms’ Random Thoughts®

Just some random thoughts that came to my mind….©Profarms’ Random Thoughts®

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