Have I lived long enough?
How long do I have to live to feel that I have lived long enough?
These thought provoking questions were a theme of a meditation session with my Buddhist meditation teacher.
I have made them subjective,as my own question because the subject of death even after one has lived to a hundred is a sensitive topic and I want to draw this discussion inwardly to myself so that my dear readers don’t get panicked by this discourse.
If I wanted to be thinking I have lived enough in the future, then the best way to get there would be to live with that exact same thought right now.
Immediately, I started asserting this new notion that,already, I had actually lived enough. After all, there are many humans that are not blessed with the experience of even a second day of life on earth.
How greedy was I willing to be?
How selfish and ungrateful?
The deeper this pronouncement that I had lived enough sunk into me, the greater the shroud of fear surrounding death lifted.
Whether I initially had believed this or not, I slowly grew to the place where I knew, beyond any doubt, that I had lived enough.
Yes! I had already lived enough!
And, just like that, all my fears vanished and I finally felt free, overflowing with a sense of appreciation and contentment.
Ever since, I’ve been discussing this concept of “enough” with others in the throes of grief and loss.
What I explain is that “enough” is always a value judgment, rather than something that can be quantified or measured.
It’s about perspective, a determination on
our part to choose gratitude for what we’ve been granted over regret for what we have lost or fears about what we might lose.
This can be tremendously powerful, though admittedly very hard at times.
Is it possible to view the death of a young
child and understand that he or she lived enough?
Can a parent suffering through such a loss perceive their abbreviated time with their son or daughter as enough?
When a friend or parent or anyone else we care about passes away, can we experience the time we had with them as enough?
The answer is yes.
It is possible, if and when we choose to exercise our right to invoke this perspective.
We can view whatever time we’ve been given through the continually available lens of gratitude, appreciation,celebration, and love.
We can understand each moment as a gift, as “enough.”
To be a human is little short of a miracle.
In the limitlessly vast universe of atoms and particles and stars and planets,gases and quarks and molecules, stones and trees and bugs and platypuses, of all the possible manifestations of life that are possible, we have been given the rarest of privileges of experiencing what it is like to be human.
Just by being here, we’ve already beaten the odds, no matter how many more minutes of this miracle we get to experience.
We know when we lived enough by knowing this right now, during this and all future moments, even while we crave to drink in as much as life continues to offer us.
We appreciate that no more is needed.
We’re thankful and, from the wisdom of this thankfulness,we smile, at ourselves and all around us.
We’ve already lived enough—and that’s a beautiful thing.
Just some random thoughts that came to my mind….©Profarms’ Random Thoughts®